A horrible celebration by those who choose darkness, Lucifer. Centers around sex and death. Survivors like myself who have remembered and broken away from such a devestating, abusive, cruel, and sadistic upbringing, find this day extreemly hard to cope with. Even harder to understand how society could even find happiness in dressing up in morbid and disturbing costumes, make food depicting the gore at a party, and celebrating this sick holiday. They are removed from the reality of this day.
I try to reason that society is oblivious.
It feels like a slap in my face. A slap in the face of all survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse. What if all the stores, media, society found fun in celebrating the Holocaust? Have their children dress up and get candy, and find fun in mocking those who died in the death camps??? I am trying to understand.
I struggle with SRA dates and it takes its toll on me. Despite it all I manage to work, cook, find joy in life, smile, laugh, take care of myself, my kitties, my home, treat others well, believe in God, The Angels and The Universe.
As they celebrate on Halloween, more children trapped in SRA families will be severely abused, and selected victims will die.
This world is more than the " physical", there is also the "spiritual". The spiritual energy is very high on Halloween...I can feel the heaviness of pure evil, as evil and witchcraft/ Satanisim is taking place. I believe that society has become numb/ blind/ ignorant/ and desensitized re: Halloween/ are adding to and raising the negative spiritual energy and are inadvertanly participating in the celebration of evil/ darkness.
I dread Halloween every year, and cant wait until its over. Theres nothing like society shoving all the triggers and reminders in my face.
Last Thursday, Oct 20th, just after 6 am as I was coming up the escalator in the bus terminal to go to the appropriate lane for my connecting bus, there were two big guys standing at the top of the escalator, middle age, staring me down. The next morning on Friday Oct 21st the same two guys stared me down again as I came up the escalator and as I walked by, the one guy said to the other " Shes the one". Im very nervous and on guard concidering my background. Not sure what to think. It was very unnerving. Halloween is in 6 days. I will be very cautious when going to work later this week. Ive been harrased in the past, and my family has threatened me for leaving the cult. Im not sure if this is the cult trying to mess with me/ scare me, or if its unrelated. Unfortunately, because of my background, I need to be aware, keep myself safe. I have a lot of fear, and rightfully so. I wish, pray for safety, peace.
My wish is that everyone is safe this Halloween.
I do not mean to offend anyone, I just have intense feelings re: Halloween because of what I endured, and how the holiday continues to affect me. I love all that are close to me, value each and every one of you. Maybe one day the SRA dates wont affect me so much. I pray for this.
To those of you who have supported me today by sending supportive quotes on healing, sending a supportive text, email, and calling me, thankyou. It means so much.