Victorious Heart Inc. ca

Ritual Abuse Survivor and Author of: "UNLOCKING BURIED SECRETS" & "UNLOCKING BURIED SECRETS #2: Healing From Satanic Ritual Abuse Workbook for Male & Female Survivors"

Mothers Day

For ritual abuse survivors, Mothers Day is a painful reminder of another cult holiday. For some survivors who were forced to become pregnant within the cult, the pain is magnified.
The pain is doubled when the media splashes "Mothers Day" on TV, in stores, etc. Im a mother, but my twins are gone, no one wishes me "Happy Mothers Day".  I feel so empty, sad, void. It would mean a lot if my being a mother was " spoken about" because I am a mother.....unfortunately I never had the chance to enjoy my twins. I wish I had the courage to speak openly about my being a mother, and how I feel. I guess as hard as it is for me to bring it up, its equally hard and uncomfortable for others. 
Mothers Day is suppose to be a day for moms that deserve recognition for all of their efforts in mothering their children. I know my efforts as a teen to protect my twins were all that any protective, loving mom could do in these circumstances. Unfortunately, my efforts failed, I failed to protect my babies. I never named them. Today, May 3rd, 2016 I am naming them 5 days before Mothers Day.  I love you Sky, and Star.

Definition of a good mother:
-Supportive, loving, nurturing and kind
-Dependable, reliable, responsible, trustworthy, on time
-Protects/ fights for their child's well being, happiness, education, growth, and independence

Definition of a bad mother:
-Abusive, hateful, neglectful, deceptive, manipulative, cunning, sadistic, cruel, psychopath
-Unavailable, unreliable, untrustworthy, always absent mentally and physically, hands their child over to evil willfully and gleefully
-Doesnt have a maternal bone in her body

For the survivors (mothers)  like myself who wanted their babies,  would have done anything for them, miss them like crazy, 
tried to protect them but failed, and think of them every day, especially on Mothers Day:
-The cult can not destroy you, or your memory of your babies
-Your babies are safe with God and the Angels
-Recognize that you had no choice and no power as a child when trying to protect your babies from harm
-Allow yourself to celebrate Mothers Day and honor your being a mother even though you are not with your babies (Dont allow this cult holiday to destroy your memory of your babies, or your wanting to do something to remember them each year on Mothers Day)
-Be kind to yourself on this day (Pamper yourself, take it easy)
-Forgive yourself for not being able to save your babies 
*This is a tough one...but so important. Give yourself a break

To my babies:
I love you and miss you every day

To my friend who wished me " Happy Mothers Day"... Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Here is a link re: " Breeders" within multigenerational Satanic Cults.  I have no memory of multiple births other than my twins so hopefully I wasnt a breeder. I also have no memory of being forced to kill them or being forced to canabalize them. I remember my father killing them in front of me after I was forced to deliver, and after he raped me in front of them. I pray what I remember is it. No more pieces of the memory to unfold. Please God.